It's 16DPO and still there's no sign of AF. Unfortunately, my test was BFN again. I'm a hormotional wreck, because I actually got my hopes up again, when I swore I wasn't going to do that this cycle. I have no clue why I'm late, because if I was pregnant, surely I would be able to get a positive result at this point. I know that I did O, because of the temperature shift on my chart (which you can see at the bottom of the page) and my LP is never longer than 14 days. I called a group practice in the area to set up an appointment ASAP. At first the lady told me to wait another week and if AF still hasn't shown up then call them, but I was insistent and told her that I know I am late and I need to know that there isn't something wrong. I told her about my past miscarriages and that if I am pregnant that I need to get on progesterone ASAP. I think the fear in my voice convinced her to help me. She set up an appointment for me to see a nurse practitioner next Wednesday and told me to keep testing every couple of days.
I've definitely had more than my share of disappointments and struggles when it comes to TTC and it has all taken a toll on my emotions, but I have to admit that when people tell me "I'm so sorry", etc., it makes it hurt more, for some reason. I don't know why. Maybe it's the thought of someone pitying me. Don't pity me. There's no reason to. I have a wonderful life with an incredible husband. I am loved and cared for. I have a home and I have nice things. I have wonderful family and friends and people that truly care about me. Of course I wish I had children or were pregnant, but don't pity me because I'm not a mother. There are so many people that have children that are miserable (as there are those with children that are happy), so I am grateful for what I have and truly happy in my life. Life isn't perfect, but life is good for me. I don't mean to ramble, but I just want to stop you from telling me you are sorry, because there's nothing to be sorry about. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers on our behalf, but know that when we pray, we are telling the Lord how thankful we are, as well as praying for a child. So, if you pray for us, pray that we may continue to be happy. Thank you all so much for caring enough to read this silly blog and supporting us on this journey.