Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Where the heck have I been?
Taking a much needed break from TTC, that's where. I knew it was coming, that need to tear myself away from my obsession, but I didn't expect it to hit with such force. In December, I pretty much went MIA when one day I just set down my thermometer, put away my charts, and logged off of my TTC world online. Boy, did I need it! I think B was about ready to send me to TTC rehab, because my baby fixation was getting a little out of control. So, after months of ignoring my biological clock, I am now ready to return, in moderation, to the world of TTC. B is pretty gung ho about it, hoping that we'll have some success soon, whether it be natural or via IUI. I, on the other hand, am feeling very cautious. I want a baby as badly as ever, but am worried that I'll stress myself out with all of the details of TTC. Therefore, I am going to take baby steps. I am not currently charting, but plan to ease back into it. Anyway, I think these past several months have been good for me, physically. I've been very active and have lost a little bit of weight. My cycles have become pretty regular again. I'm still not O-ing on CD14 or anything like that, but closer to CD21, which is fine with me, if that's what my body is comfortable with. I started taking this Chinese herb called Dong Quai this cycle, which is supposed to help you ovulate. It was only $6.99 at GNC, so I thought I'd give it a shot. Surprisingly, it seems to be working better than the Clomid did, without the nasty side effects. Hooray! I O'd on about CD 19, which was 14 days ago. I feel like I'm going to start, so I'm not getting my hopes up, especially since I haven't been charting and can't be exactly sure of what day I did, in fact, O. So, I'll just have to keep waiting to see if AF is going to show her ugly face. I'm pretty sure she will, but that's ok, because I'm not going to let her scare me off.
cleverly communicated by Carlia at 12:15 PM