Wednesday, June 2, 2010
you're probably wondering why i've become such a yo-yo blogger, especially because i used to post so faithfully. i always chalk it up to dealing with life, but this time i swear it's true! :) i recently went back to school on top of my 9-5 job and my photography business. busy does not begin to cover what i've been! but, here we are, day who-knows-what in yet another long cycle. i'm blaming this one on the stress of school and work combined. actually, i'm not sure if i've started a new cycle or what. i started spotting last friday and it has continued since. (here's where it gets graphic.) it's not my normal beginning of AF spotting, either. this is more of a brownish discharge. no cramps. no sore breasts. nothing. i feel completely normal. i definitely don't feel preggo, which helps me not to get my hopes up. i tried to call my sister yesterday who serves as my bad luck charm, but she was out. normally, i call her when i think i might be PG and i wind up starting AF the next day. i know that sounds weird, but it usually works to help me not get overly excited or anxious and keeps me from wasting a test. like i said, though, i'm not feeling PG, so i'm wondering if maybe all this spotting is just AF. if so, i can definitely handle a cycle like this! just to put my mind at ease, though, i stopped at the store on my way to work this morning and picked up a pack of First Response Pregnancy Tests. if i don't get a normal flow by friday, i'll POAS. it's really a nice change to be able to look at this from a non-emotionally-invested standpoint, though. there's much less pressure and i know i'll be fine either way.
cleverly communicated by Carlia at 9:18 AM