Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Determinedly Indeterminable

i think the title says it all. ha ha!

bad news first: it was too early to be able to see the gestational sac. there was something in the uterus, but the doctor said he didn't think (not 100% sure though) it was the baby and that it was most likely a bit of blood, but nothing to worry about.

good news: my hcg level is up to 210!!! a little more than double! YAY! my hope is renewed and i get to be pregnant for at least a couple more days.


i go back in friday morning for more blood work and another ultrasound. it will be the same doctor, dr. O (not my normal dr. T), that did the ultrasound today. i really like him and am happy to work with him again. i appreciated his kindness today and the fact that he was a straight-shooter, and especially that he combined the two.

he told me there are three possible outcomes. #1: this is an ectopic pregnancy. #2: this is an abnormal pregnancy that will result in miscarriage. #3: that this is a normal, healthy pregnancy. i so appreciated that he didn't rule #3 out! anyway, he told me he didn't think it was ectopic, though that is certainly still a possible concern. he said he expects to find our little one nestled in the uterus, but whether it is #2 or #3 is what he expects to have to deal with.

common sense tells me that there's no way this pregnancy could be viable, but...i just have this good feeling. i just know that everything is going to be okay. i don't know if that means that this pregnancy is going to last, i just know that i'm going to be okay... and that feels good.

25 comments:

Krista said...

I am just now catching up with posts and just saw that you got a BFP! I just wanted to stop in and say congratulations! I think it is WAY more important that the betas are doubling...even if they are low. I JUST saw a girl get her first beta at 10, and that continued to double (even though they stayed at low numbers,) and the pregnancy ended up being completely viable! Hang in there and stay positive!!!

JustHeather said...

Woohoo for the higher betas! I love your last sentence, keep up the hope.

And know that I had a friend who was told several times that her pregnancy wasn't viable, it was ectopic, she was given a prescription to stop the pregnancy, etc. She didn't give up hope and now has a beautiful girl. Never give up hope.

miranda said...

Woohoo!! Definitely crossing my fingers and toes for you!

Bridget said...

I'm so glad you are feeling positive with everything that is happening. The higher HCG is a good sign!

B- said...

Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

Sarah said...

Chant with me now! #3! #3! :) Still sending hope you way!!

Baby Hopes said...

Praying this is #3!!!!! I'm so glad your numbers doubled! That is really a great sign! Thinking of you - so much strength and positivity - you're truly an inspiration!

Marianne said...

Dude, it better be #3!!!! I am so praying for you with every ounce of my being. Stay positive!!!

amiracle4us said...

increasing numbers are GREAT news!!! Keep the hope alive :)

Honeybee said...

hoping for #3!!! you're an inspiration for staying so positive!! :)

New Year Mum said...

Great to hear that there's still hope.... FXd for you hun and hoping for #3 for you. Love always xoxo

Liz said...

Doubling numbers are great. You are amazing how positive you are staying through this. I am hoping for #3 and that your ultrasound goes well on Friday. Good luck Carlia!! Thinking positive thoughts for you.

E and R said...

Yay for doubling numbers! Hope that things keep progressing and you have healthy baby at the end to show for it!

Rosachka said...

So happy to hear that your beta is doubling!!! Fx for a viable pregnancy! Hope you have great news at your next u/s.

SHILLIG4FAMILY said...

Aimi lark's pregnancy started out similar to this. Low numbers and constant eptopic fear.
Here's to hope!!

Residency Widow said...

You have had a rollercoaster couple of days but it's great how positive you are about it. Keeping my fingers crossed for #3 and hope you get a more definitive answer soon.

A said...

taht is awesome that the betas are rising! fingers crossed that everything looks perfect at your next u/s!! :-D

marriage20 said...

So happy to hear there's still hope. Hoping for a great #3, and wishing you all the best! I know how hard it is not knowing, just hang in there as best you can, and keep hope alive!

Amanda said...

SO so relieved to hear your beta has continued to double. Your doctor sounds awesome, calm, and in control. Just who you need right now. Can't wait to hear how tomorrow goes..good luck!!

Rebecca said...

Doubling betas is a great thing. And, one way or another, we're here with you!

marilyn said...

I hope it is number 3~!!! I have my fingers crossed. you are so strong.

Sarah said...

Oh yippee!!! This is SO exciting. Hooray for doubling numbers! Hooray for YOU!

Casey said...

Hi,

I got to your blog through Mel at Stirrup Queens' IComLeaveWe. I'm thrilled to read your news, and will be checking in frequently to see how you're getting along. Very best of luck to you on your journey.

Casey

sunnyside up said...

I just stumbled upon your blog. We got out BFP on May 12th, but then last Wed, I started spotting, we went to the ER and they said my cervix was still hard and my uterus was full, my betas were 600, 1200, 2200, and rising. We went back for a follow up with our OB that Thurs to only find that they couldn't yet see a gestational sac, but the did see something near my right ovary. For some reason they are thinking it is ectopic, my hpt's are still turning into BFP's the second my urine hits them, I'm not sure why I'm still peeing on sticks, but for some reason it helps me sleep and keeps the tears away for now.
We go back to our OB on Tuesday for another ultra sound and hopes that the gestational sac was too small and playing hide and go seek with the ultra sound tech.
This would be our first pregnancy, we did it au' natural!!! And that made it even better!
I still have some preggo symptoms, SUPER sore tata's and very tired, smells makes me sick to my stomach, but then some times I have no symptoms.

I will be praying for you and hopes that you don't travel down my path. But I'm also praying that this will be our first pregnancy and we deliver in Jan 2012.

I'll be watching to see how your journey goes...

HUGS!

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Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

I am so sorry that I have not been commenting. I can't believe that I didn't know all this was going on with you. Sending you lots of love and HUGS! You are so strong and have such a great outlook in life!

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