Thursday, June 2, 2011

What Next?

yesterday morning i went in for my last blood draw for a while. my hcg level is less than 5 now, right where it's supposed to be, so it's all done.

but, where do we go from here? i know that most doctors recommend waiting at least one full cycle afterward before TTC or, in our case, do another procedure, but i hate waiting!

when the nurse called with the hcg results, i asked her where we go from here. she looked over my chart and said that dr. T wants to meet with us before we move forward. to be honest, that scares me. what if she wants to do more testing before doing another treatment? what if she tells me that there's something wrong with me, like that embryos can't implant in my uterus and i can never carry a child? what if, what if, what if... i'm trying to be rational and tell myself that this is standard procedure after a miscarriage, just to check on us to see how we're doing physically, psychologically, emotionally. B thinks maybe she'll tell us she wants to skip the 3rd and final IUI and jump right into the 1st IVF cycle. i really hope he's right.

unfortunately, the soonest she could get us in (well, just me, i guess since B won't be able to fly in in time) isn't till the 24th. that should be at the end of this cycle, which could put us right on track for the next treatment. so, that could be good, at least.

i'm just feeling a little scared right now, because i have no idea what she's going to want to do...and it doesn't help that i have to wait 22 whole days!

11 comments:

Maria said...

glad to hear your levels went down!!
grrr, the waiting game sucks a big one! i'm sorry!
happy that it sounds like timing is on your side for your next appt! :)

Baby Hopes said...

The waiting in the midst of uncertainty is the worst part of this. Thinking of you and hoping this time passes quickly for you...

Sarah said...

So as I was reading this and got to the part where you said the doc wants to see you I thought "they're going to skip the next IUI and go to IVF!" Then I read that's what B thinks - I sure hope we're right!!! It really stinks that you have to wait. If you want someone to go with you just let me know - I'll even buy a copy of People. :) I'm sure you would prefer that it was B but if you don't want to be alone I'd be happy to go with you. Hang in there!!!

Sarah said...

I think the world should award us all the "Most Patient Women of the Year" award. Waiting is soooo hard. I'm kind of freaking out a little that after my surgery this month they will tell me to wait like two years before starting IVF. Hang in there! Im sure the doc is just a good one and wants to touch base on where to go from here. I get really upset when I think a dr is just pushing and pushing treatment without checking in and re-evaluating from time to time. I think it will be a good thing :)

Bridget said...

I'm sure you are right and she just wants to check on you and see how you are doing, my Dr. did the same after each of my miscarriages. The waiting is the worst!

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

Ugh...the waiting is the worst. I hope your meeting is routine and you can start right back up again! Sending you HUGS!

Rebecca said...

OH, I hate the waiting. But, truly just having a doctor who wants to talk to you about this and figure out where you go next is a great thing. When I miscarried last summer, my doctor just had the nurses monitor my HCG over several weeks and then just had the nurse call and say "OK, good luck!" She never even called to see how I was doing. Bleh.

Kate said...

Sorry you have to wait - but hopefully it's just routine. Good luck!

marilyn said...

oh wow...sorry this is no answer right now. I hope you can find some calmness within this time:)
hugs

New Year Mum said...

Waiting is so hard... and 'not knowing' is even harder :( I hope she gives you the answers and plan you want... Thinking of you always xoxo

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Miss Mac said...

Most likely a meeting to discuss next steps and the plan that is going to work for you! After 2 unsuccessful IUI's, that meeting for me was "on to IVF." Sorry for all the waiting, always a wait on this journey and that stinks! Hang in there!

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