Tuesday, May 15, 2012

I Almost Didn't Blog About It...

mother's day, that is.

my mind was in a million places on sunday - wishing my mom wasn't 2000 miles away, loving the baby boy in my arms, and aching for all those still waiting to hold their little miracles.

i was there last year, and for many years before. i know how much it hurts to see others being celebrated for being something that was unobtainable for me. i conveniently got "sick" every mother's day, so that i wouldn't have to watch as the mothers were asked to stand at church to receive their flower or candle or whatever that year's gift may be and be recognized as a selfless nurturer, and later receive my own pity gift as they passed out the few remaining extras. i wanted to crawl under a rock to hide from my embarrassment, later opting instead to play hooky.

i dwelt on those memories as i got ready for church, not having any reason to hide out this year, and even shed a few tears (before applying the mascara, of course) for all of the women still fighting the battle.

in an effort to be sensitive to them, i almost didn't blog about my first mother's day. then i came to a realization...i deserve this day. i waited nine years for this day. i endured nine painful, tear-filled "un-mother's days".

my boys hanging out, watching TV
so, with a portion of reserved just for them, i set aside my survivor's guilt and poured the rest of my heart into my big day and what a wonderful day it was.

B got up early to feed mack then laid him next to me to cuddle until it was time to get up and get going. i loved waking up to my baby boy's smiling face next to mine! before getting out of bed, B brought me breakfast, waffles and strawberries - my favorite.

i was completely spoiled all day, never having to lift a finger, not even to change a diaper. (talk about the perfect gift!) as far as the gifts go, B and mack really hit it out of the park, giving me a new pair of running shoes, a much needed external hard drive, and (my favorite present of all) an eternity ring encircled by small diamonds and garnets (mack's birthstone), complete with mack's name & birth date inscribed on the inside. i couldn't believe my eyes when i opened it! B is the king of going above and beyond and he certainly made me feel like a queen. :)

B better watch out, though, because i'm a an advantage now. i know exactly where he set the bar, mother's day coming first and all, so i know what i need to do to outdo him for father's day. i've got a few things in the works, which i can't divulge here, because, believe it or not, B actually reads this silly blog. that said - thank you, B, for making my first mother's day better than i could have ever imagined! i love you!!!

11 comments:

Fiona aka DRMama said...

You absolutely deserved to enjoy your first Mother's Day with Mack and I am so glad you did. Wow, you have one hell of a husband! :) What lovely gifts!

Elizabeth :: Bébé Suisse said...

I'm so glad you could celebrate - and in such a perfect way, too! And that photo is beautiful. Daddies and babies ... ahhh.

Ashley at flats to flip flops said...

I totally understand..it is such a weird thing to go from dreading Mother's Day to enjoying it even though you know so many are suffering. It's a weird, in-between world! Happy First Mother's Day, friend! You deserve it!
Ashley:)

SLESE1014 said...

Happy First Morher's Day!! So glad you had a wonderful day!!

Stephanie said...

I'm so glad you chose to write about your first Mother's Day, you absolutely deserve it! Sounds like you had a wonderful day and what a special gift you got!

Bridget said...

I almost sisn't either, it's so hard. I'm glad you did though, I loved hearing all about your special day!

Maria said...

What a beautiful more than deserved day to an amazing woman and mother. I'm so glad you celebrated and were treated to so many blessings, Carlia.
What a touching gift B got you. You are blessed and I'm happy you shared it with all of us. The photo is beautiful. And so are you.
Xoxox
Maria

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

This post made me smile! I am so happy for you. What a wonderful picture of your boys!

Tiffany said...

Happy (belated) Mother's Day! Great picture of your boys too! :o)

Dandelion Breeze said...

Wonderful to hear that you were spoilt :) You deserve it :)) xoxo

Kayla & Joshua said...

Send me pictures of your ring! I'm so glad you got the best mothers day you could of ever asked for!! You deserve everything and more! Waffles and strawberries sounds yummmyy!!!

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