my mind was in a million places on sunday - wishing my mom wasn't 2000 miles away, loving the baby boy in my arms, and aching for all those still waiting to hold their little miracles.
i was there last year, and for many years before. i know how much it hurts to see others being celebrated for being something that was unobtainable for me. i conveniently got "sick" every mother's day, so that i wouldn't have to watch as the mothers were asked to stand at church to receive their flower or candle or whatever that year's gift may be and be recognized as a selfless nurturer, and later receive my own
i dwelt on those memories as i got ready for church, not having any reason to hide out this year, and even shed a few tears (before applying the mascara, of course) for all of the women still fighting the battle.
in an effort to be sensitive to them, i almost didn't blog about my first mother's day. then i came to a realization...i deserve this day. i waited nine years for this day. i endured nine painful, tear-filled "un-mother's days".
|my boys hanging out, watching TV|
B got up early to feed mack then laid him next to me to cuddle until it was time to get up and get going. i loved waking up to my baby boy's smiling face next to mine! before getting out of bed, B brought me breakfast, waffles and strawberries - my favorite.
i was completely spoiled all day, never having to lift a finger, not even to change a diaper. (talk about the perfect gift!) as far as the gifts go, B and mack really hit it out of the park, giving me a new pair of running shoes, a much needed external hard drive, and (my favorite present of all) an eternity ring encircled by small diamonds and garnets (mack's birthstone), complete with mack's name & birth date inscribed on the inside. i couldn't believe my eyes when i opened it! B is the king of going above and beyond and he certainly made me feel like a queen. :)
B better watch out, though, because i'm a an advantage now. i know exactly where he set the bar, mother's day coming first and all, so i know what i need to do to outdo him for father's day. i've got a few things in the works, which i can't divulge here, because, believe it or not, B actually reads this silly blog. that said - thank you, B, for making my first mother's day better than i could have ever imagined! i love you!!!