i am kicking myself over this sad state, because i always swore that when i had kids i would still take pride in my appearance. i promised myself that i would never leave the house without make-up on or in a stained t-shirt. well, i've broken all my rules and there's no excuse for it.
maybe it's the fact that i'm without my husband during the week, so i don't feel like i have anyone to impress. maybe it's that i'm getting spit-up on daily. maybe it's that i'm tired.
honestly, i think it's because i've put myself on the back-burner. did you know i haven't cut my hair in 6 months? or that the maxi dresses i blogged about were the first articles of clothing i've bought myself since before christmas? and don't get me started on how long it's been since i've gotten any new jewelry (costume, even) or shoes (besides running shoes)!
my wardrobe is in a sad state and i don't know where to begin. i need a fashion intervention STAT!
i think i've been in denial about this, but my 100 day challenge has gotten me thinking more about myself and the way i feel about me.
i think it all boils down to the fact that i'm not comfortable in my own skin. i don't feel like myself, with the weight gain during the fertility treatments then a long period of inactivity. my clothes don't fit the way they used to and that is depressing. it certainly doesn't help that i pull my hair into a bun or ponytail everyday to avoid getting spit-up in it or having it pulled. neither does the fact that my make-up rarely gets brought out during the week or how tired i am because i stay up till 2am because i hate going to bed by myself so i put it off as long as i possibly can. (vent much?)
i think i'm in a funk. anybody wanna go shopping with me?