Wednesday, November 21, 2012

The Giving of Thanks

"we can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures." - thornton wilder

this has truly been a year of thanks-giving. it has not been perfect, but throughout it all, i have tried to focus on the blessings in my life, of which there is countless number. it would be easy to dwell on the hardships, focus on the have-not's, and cry over the what-might-have-been's, but when all you see is the negative, all you will feel is negative.

i've had my share of struggles and disappointments, as well as a little bit of heartache this year, but the list of good things to celebrate far outweighs them.

my mom always taught us that when things aren't going the way we want them to, to count our blessings, literally. we would make a list (sometimes mentally) of all the things we were grateful for (our family, our toys, the fact that we were born in texas...). this lesson has gotten me through many a tough time. throughout our years of yearning for a child, i would remember how blessed i was to have B by my side. when financial struggles overwhelmed us, i tried to focus on the blessing of having good health, that we were physically capable of working. when my endeavors have fallen short, i would take note of my talents and abilities, of the things that i have been able to accomplish. there is always something to be grateful for.

obviously, the biggest blessing in my life this year is the long-awaited arrival of our son, mack. all the years of waiting and praying and wishing that he would join our family were well worth it. the joy of motherhood is beyond "as advertised". there isn't a day that i don't look at him and send a little prayer of thanks up to heaven for him.

at this time last year, B and i were forced to live apart, only together on weekends and holidays. i am so grateful that he is home permanently now, that we're are all together as a family and that we will be able to spend the holidays under one roof. i couldn't ask for more!

i would be remiss if i didn't say how thankful i am for our extended family. mack may not know it now, but he was born into a wonderful extended family, with extremely loving grandparents, sweet cousins, and more doting aunts and uncles than a kid could ask for. there is certainly no shortage of loved ones in our family, between B's 6 siblings and their kids and my 10 siblings and their kids. i have been particularly blessed with lovely in-laws who accept me unconditionally and an immediate family who always stand by my side and support me with boundless love and encouragement. i am so grateful that mack landed smack in the middle of such a ridiculously large, endlessly loving family.

i am especially grateful for modern medicine this year, without which mack would not be here, nor would B's dad be able to be treated for his cancer. he just went through his third round of chemo and the latest scan shows that the mass is subsiding. one more round of chemo then they will reevaluate his progress and determine the next course of action, or if one is needed. we're praying that the 4th will be the last and that his cancer will completely go into remission. what a christmas miracle that would be!

of course, i'm also thankful for this blog, for my wonderful readers, and for the outlet that this venue provides for me. the friends i have made here and the support i have received from so many who are not obligated to care about me in any way has touched my heart more than you all know. i am so blessed to be surrounded, both here and in my everyday life, by strong, courageous, talented, loyal friends. i know that i have been neglectful of reading/commenting on other blogs lately (thanks to a super-duper busy photo season), but still i am grateful for each of you, truly.

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Stephanie said...

What a great list of things to be thankful for this year! You're right, of course we can focus on the negative things, but that's not what this season is about. I am SOO glad to hear that B's dad's chemo seems to be working! I will be praying for a Christmas miracle too, for him to be in remission. Happy Thanksgiving!!

Bridget said...

We all have so much to be grateful for! So happy that everything is going well for you xoxo!

Maria said...

This was beautiful! Made me tear up - my mom says the same exact count your blessings when times are trying. So happy to hear B's dad is doing well...he will continue to be in my prayers!! You are strong and wise and beautiful! So thankful to have "met" you along our journeys.
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family!

Fiona said...

So many wonderful things to be thankful for this year indeed. Especially having our little ones in our lives this year. I feel so incredibly blessed, that is for certain. I am so happy to hear that B's dad's chemo is going well. Praying it continues to do so. Have a wonderful thanksgiving today, Carlia!! :)

Liveseygirl said...

Beautiful blog post. I wish we celebrated Thanksgiving in the UK. Mack looks just like his Daddy by the way x

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