this year has been rough for both sides of our family, first with the loss of my dad, followed by the loss of B's mom then the discovery of the brain tumor in B's dad. there have been many tears shed and many prayers sent up. i wish i could just snap my fingers, bob my head, or wiggle my nose and make it all better, but what will be will be.
further testing has shown that B's dad has not 1, but 12 brain tumors, each malignant and each inoperable. i just can't believe it.
the doctor has pushed him to take on the radiation and chemo treatments to battle them, but his rapid deterioration has the family convinced that he will not be recovering from this one. they did start the treatments, however, completing 2 radiation treatments and 1 round of chemo, but have since halted all further treatments.
he isn't himself anymore. usually sharp as a tack and healthy as a horse, he now forgets what he's saying mid-sentence and cannot walk without assistance. he is so weak that he is unable to care for himself, so he is living with B's sister and her family, but the rest of the family nearby comes in to help where they can.
if i'm being completely honest, i think he is just ready to go and his body is responding to his will. this is a man who underwent multiple rounds of chemo and radiation for over a year while caring for his invalid wife. i am convinced that if he wanted to hang on, he could, but he's tired and he's lonely. he tired of fighting this illness and he wants nothing more than to be reunited with his sweetheart who passed away barely a month before their 50th wedding anniversary.
the family seems to be at peace with this outcome, B especially. he just doesn't want his father to suffer anymore.
hospice started coming in today. all we can do now is hope that his last days are comfortable and peaceful.